indifference

There have been so many times and years wasted on depression and I am not suggesting that anyone who is depressed is wasting their time because depression is extremally real and unfortunately very personal it has nothing to do with laziness and boredom it could be boredom or thinking maybe I need to change something I am doing currently.   But depression is very real and boredom is not always the case it takes a lot of courage to ask for help it is definitely not a sign of weakness the bottling up of emotions has not worked it takes courage to monitor your mental health.   There will always be people who will not like you no matter what and if you start compromising you will do anything to be popular so I do not even try.   My dad asked me a question recently how do I know so much about music? my response was it was my way out and that could be a negative because as I said I have a lot of depression inside of me but as I stated earlier so what? It should not matter I should be aware of it but I should never be preoccupied by it.   I do not trust many people even relatives  in my own family especially those who claim to be sincere I remember: the lyrics to the Black Sabbath song Heaven and Hell: lyrics performed and written by Ronnie James Dio the "world is full of kings and queens will blinded your eyes and steal your dreams".   Meaning it's heaven when "they tell you how good they are going to treat you and hell when you find out it was all a lie".   There will always be people who will tell you that you do not matter  and it will only get worse to do social media so I advice  do not use it.   It is hard enough growing up when there is already so much doubt inside of us.   There will only be people who will gladly tell you their opinions about how you are not worthy and that do not deserve good things to happened to you.   Not everyone is intitled to anything but everyone is definitely worthy of positive things happening for them some are born with a bad hand that they did absolutely nothing to deserve it.   I am not of the belief that  the universe conspires against anyone I think that is more than a little narcissistic it is narcissistic.   I do not believe that if you were born with a bad hand you should give up.   The human sprit is an amazing un for seeable aspect it is really easy to give up and quit.   Yes there are things that those who have a bad hand are unable to do and I think you must expect it otherwise  you will be miserable for the rest of your life.   But just because there are things you are "missing" out on that does not mean you can not try and work hard which takes courage.   If you do not believe in God or a higher power this is imposable to believe.   No one cares about others and the world is in different towards everyone.   That is definitely why anything that gives you joy and happiness you take it