My explaination

I would  like to figure  out this next step out wheather it is drawing coloring whatever it is.   I loved to draw  when I was growing up there was always great freedom in drawing and coloring it both allowed freedom  and was extremely  relaxing as well.   I should not have used the word “coloring” but drawing is the correct word.   This is just an outline so I can hopefully figure out the next step in this process.   One of the reasons I am writing this I had an idea in my head that will not leave me alone.   As a freelancer it is my goal to figure why either certain ideas work and why others do not.   But it is diffcult for me to ask for markers so I hope to find a better way.   Thank you for joining me on this continued journey I hope everyone thus far has gotten some joy out of this.   As I remember my goal which is to bring postiveity to those who enjoy what I am doing.   Which will be on dumb trivial topics from this point forward.   I admittedly am not sure what the next step will be it maybe my thoughts on topics or drawings but one thing is for certain it maybe competly different then what I have done previously.   I feel as I have to beat this message into my head which is sad but I will keep repeating it until it sticks I deserve every wonderful thing I want in this life.   Everyone deserves every wonderful thing they want in this life no merit necessary.   Side note: I believe I wrote no merit because in Chris Hardwick’s book which I highly recommend:  The Nerdist Way How to Get to the Next Level in Real Life Chris writes there is  no “merit to living in a sadness dungeon.   If  there is a will there is a way.   It is cliché for a reason it must work.   These are just notes and or pitches on how I am going to get to the next step.  

Cry and pray at the same time.

As I wrote previously my main goal with this project is to spread postiveity and not focus on negativity I cannot handle it.   I want to remove every negativity person from my life and that is a suggestion that I suggest for everyone.   Have I mentioned how much I truly miss VH1 Classic?   Well I certainly do!   I finally received VH1 Classic probably late in 2015.   So this was a time when I guess VH1 Classic had gotten rid of their VJ hosts.   But they showed old episodes of Behind the Music Remastered Pop Up Video and That Metal Show.   Watching VH1 growing up was truly some of the most fun times I remember ever having.   At this time it is most important to reflect on what is most important to all of us.   These are certainly uncertain times so maybe cry and pray at the same time it is not good for anyone to hold in pain so cry and no one can pretty cry everyone has an ugly cry so I hope we can all get through this and be better for it.   There are many times and I mean this I am not sure what to say that is  maybe why I come as aloof or not caring to those who do not know me that well.   That is not the vibe I want to give.   But as I said earlier there are many more topics that I love and that is what I want to focus on the most.   The dumb travail fun stuff.   I am really hoping the best for everyone I truly have no angier towards anyone.   I am sorry for everyone who  is struggling right now through this uncertain time the best thing we all can do is be kind towards each other and take care of if possible those who are less fortunate.  

I want to bring postivity

My main goal with hopefully not only  this project but my life is to bring postiveity to readers if they are  interested but only if they were interested.   There were more topics that I love and that is what I wanted to focus.   I wanted this project to be an escape on travail topics.   There were topics that I wrote about that were not so postive but they were not pleasant for me to write about either.   But I wanted  this to be an escape on mostly travail topics.   I have nothing but love for everyone.   I want  to make clear there is nothing wrong with crying.   In fact I think there is something wrong with you if you do not cry at certain times in your life.   Especially at times such as these there is nothing wrong with crying.   No one can pretty cry it is not good for anyone to hold in pain so let it out!   Hopefully it will make you feel much better.   It does not make you weak it just makes all of us human.   During this time it is especially important to both cry and pray and maybe at the same time.   It does not make you selfish or anything like that.   “Give everyone their moment”.   Ronnie James Dio.   I know I have written about how important it is to act as happy as possible but that does not mean  not being sad when it is time to be sad.   The phrase I keep hearing that these are uncertain times and they are.   This is a time for reflection and getting back to the basics.