Very narcisstic on my part

 

I am an ashamed that I really over thought this project because I was worried about offending someone.   I  thank God that my dad supported me and told me that if I worried about offending  everyone I would never get anything done.   So it was very threptic for me to just start writing notes.   I felt much better once I just started the process and I began to feel better.   It seems like it still took a long time but I think that escape was  a God send because I  have never felt that sick before when I begin this project.   I realized no one really cares it.   It was very narcisstic for me to over think this for such a long time.   I do care what people  think and I hope readers enjoy it.   If I write something that a reader wants me to elaborate on something or even constructive critiscm  I am fine.   I want as many people who will enjoy it as possible.   The thing about putting yourself out there no one can prepare for how people will react  to it.   When I first heard Angry Johnny from Poe I was extremely overwhelmed and disturbed at the same time.   I am not sure a musican like Poe would make it today because of poltical correctness during this time.   The main aspect of Grunge and alternative rock at that time it was extremely honest dark and brutally  disturbing it was music for the alienated which is definitely something that is needed.   Kurt Cobain of Nirvana would not be successful today because of poltical correctness it just would not work because of the internet  phones and the like.   Bands like Nirvana spoke for an entire generation  of indviuals who felt misunderstood and were disenfranchised wheather they really were or not they felt as if they were.   So it is unfortunate that society and a bunch of young people who think they are the arbiters of what is acceptable and unacceptable.   It is ironic  or maybe that is not the right word that these “arbiters”  who were  probably not even born when most of the art that they are offened.   Which is unfortunate because as I said this music maybe their only saving outlet.   I think any musican or artist understands this.   It is the same as: a painter that canvas is their outlet.   Bob Ross the host of The Joy of Painting would say “it is your world” and that “there are no mistakes only happy accidents”. I guess all we can do is tell these so called “arbiters” to buzz off and not to give into them.   Rock’n Roll hard rock heavy metal whatever it is can be an extremely postive outlet.