I am not "optimistic" but

I am not optimistic but I believe in order to go on living one must retain a level of optimism.   I envy people who have a naturally happy disposition but they probably have to master it.   But I would essentially be a fool to have an outlook that life is wonderful because I look around I see so much hate so much sadness.   I am not going to deny that but I have to retain some kind of faith in order to continue living.   With social media which I really despise I think it ruined much of society.   Well I believe if one uses it in moderation it does not have to be a bad thing but still I am not much of a supporter.   Everyone with their phones forget it and wokeness changing every couple of hours I fear for the coming generations.   Life is a tricky maze and it is diffcult for everybody the main thing I really have an issue that I see is reveling in the misfortunates of others.   Examples: a business fails or a loved one unexpectedly dies.   I am not exaggerating I see beyond horrible things like that on social media.   If one does not look and think there is an issue and maybe a downfall to  the thinking of these indviuals you have to be extremely naïve.   Everything is so poltical now and there is so  much of a divide it is truly sad.   Again there is absolutely nothing wrong with having opinions.   There are many out there who will not do something because of the  be because of fear of other opinions.   Everyone has a right to their opinions but they should not hinder someone from following a “dream or a goal that they have because it is there for a reason.   I believe God places things on our hearts for a reason and you may not understand why things are placed on your heart but everyone must find out why?   It may be a journey to find out why?   Because when God places something on our hearts we usually can only see bits and pieces of his plans.   In the 5^th section of this tome: I wrote about my disability not for any particular reason but to show my change in my mindset.   I do not believe people should cut out those escapes from their lives because they are extremely important to have.   The more joys one can get from life the better.   But not to avoid reality and their real problems but just to use it for escapes or in moderation.   That is why everyone needs support people in their lives that hold them accountable without making them feel guilty!   But no one should get rid of those escapes whatever they might be something that makes them happy anything that dulls the pain.   Something that still bothers me is the notion of the forced apology from the “woke mob” and then distorting that person’s reputation there is something off about that.   Everyone will make a certain number of mistakes in their lives.   Most of the time they are not mistakes wheather they were jokes or private conservations there is no need to apologize or give these cowards what they want.   No one should cut out those escapes even if people that love you do not enjoy it that should not stop anyone else from having those escapes.  

I wanted to be an "entertainer"

I wanted to be an entertainer growing up not for fame and certainly not for notoriety I think with social media and the like a whole generation has been taught that just has long as they get notoriety and fame that is all that matters.   Instead of excellences it has to do with distorting people that you disagree or talking about how righteous they are.   This is not a recipe for a healthy and happy society.   I am not sure how to maintain happiness at any given time but I know for certain that this is not possible in this climate.   I wanted to be a VJ which was a video jockey the reason I wanted to do this is to give back the joy happiness and fun that those VJs on MTV and VH1 gave me doing something with my brother because I needed someone to play.   But not anymore society has taken the fun out of everything.   Humor joy and everything else fun has been removed.   I am not sure how this can be reversed but it needs to be.   Instead of strolling social media or strolling emails which I do not believe we were wired to do I think everyone needs an escape because there is so much negativity politics and division out there it is crucial for an escape which does not seem to be possible at this point.   Which seems as if it will only get worse but there has been some much-needed push back.   But the thing that brought people together pop culture is not agreed.   Everyone has a right to their opinions but there was not a cancel culture which there is now.   In the past people may not have agreed on opinions and what was funny but they moved on with their lives because they agreed on freedom of speech.   But because of what has been created “cancel culture” that has been turned on it’s head which has made people miserable.   In conclusion I wanted to be an entertainer to give back what those Video Jockeys gave to me but I do not want to be anymore because of what society has created unless the country’s mindset reverses and goes back to a “live and let live mantra I do not want or need the hassle.   The main reason I was planning on hosting a program with my brother I realize I do not have the talent to host a program alone.   I can not believe I feel the need to write this but because of the current climate we are I am not a perfect person.   We need to start letting people be who they are and not care about who they are or what they did in the past.   I am not sure why that matters maybe the only thing this could be is narcissism  I know people tune out when I say that but I think that is why society is where it is because we do not have real problems so we have to care what others have done or are doing.   A trend I see and I hope it is just that but I unfortunaly do not think so.   I do not understand it that does not make any sense what so ever to me.   Again this has nothing to do with having differences of opinion but why can't we support each other like we did back in the wonderful day.   I do not understand and will never understand the need or  the want to ravel in the misery of others.   Here is an example: TMZ but again it has become so common place most people will not understand what I am referring.   The media's basic excuse will be they are just "reporting" that to me is a cop out.   The media is just getting worse just when I believed it could not get worse.     My main issue or objection with the media is the lack of "EMPTHY' that many seem to have towards others.   Obviously I am not trying to lump all  the media in this category but that is mostly what I see I am not sure that this would be considered an opinion it is more of a feeling and emotion that I have.   My main goal in beginning this project has been to express my opinions on music and professional wrestling.   When I was growing up and even  now discovering new music is as if I am discovering  gems.   It is not the same because I do not feel I have that relationship I had with those VJs.     Even when I wrote about politics and religion my goal was to make my views on those topics has entertaining has I could.   I regret writing about politics.   The topic of religion I was okay because it was and has been threptic for me to discuss what I struggle being honest about my faith I believe is extremely important to me.   I believe that sometimes people will use religion to explain everything I believe they are fooling themselves.     But my intention was for this to be an escape for me and maybe others.    

I am greatful

I just want to say that I am greatful and thankful that I have been able to try and write a blog.   But truthful  I am not even sure how to start a blog or what constitutes a blog it is more of a “tome of some kind.   I really do not like title of this blog but I had to tittle it something but I greatful I am greatful to God and my family especially my brother my dad mom and grandpa.   I am not sure what my future holds or what country’s future holds but I know one thing for sure we can not last long without hope.   

The biggest problem not just for young people but people in general is finding meaning

The biggest problem not just for young people but for people in general is meaning.   People get meaning from a lot of different things such as: relationships religion/faith and their work.   The main point young people and others in general will not get meaning from social media and how many followers they have.   When kids are asked what do they want to do when they grow up? and they say a social media influencer that does not give me a lot of hope for the future.   I think we need to get our priorities straight.   I need to be carful but it does not bode well for the next generation.   Society is really falling younger people.   I think one of the biggest problems we are facing is the constant need to be reached all of this technology is ruining our society.   We are only here for a short time and the best thing we can do is try to support or mentor the next generations.   Society has to get its meaning back.   One of the things that people who are successful will usually  tell you that their biggest obstacle that they faced was getting out of their own way which makes sense because the more anyone thinks about themselves the more missirable and discontent they will become.   The biggest challenge we face is to help younger generations find meaning.   No one will get meaning by leading lives of escapism everyone needs moments or activities that they enjoy but that should be only in moderation and not to constanly escape reality because of social media and like are brains trick us into believing we are accomplishing all of these activities but in reality we are not.   I got this idea from reading: Chris Hardwick’s book The Nerdist Way How to Reach The Next Level in Your Real Life.  

Sometimes people just want to know you care. That is all it takes

Most of the time it is extremely important to just let people know that you care about them.   That you are not just so busy that you do not take the time to care about them.   I think or I know that is the best thing we all can do show compassion and let them know that you care.  

virtue singaling

I am not sure what is happening in this country it seems to me that when I was growing up we understood humor what jokes were.   Also we were not so supercharged with politics.   In other words society understood context.   There was not this knee jerk reaction to get rid of those that the majority did not like but they moved on with their lives.   I am just not sure what is happening but it is more then a little scary it is demoralizing to society.   This is not a recipe for people to pursue happiness I think being happy or the act of being happy is beneficial not only to you but the others around you but poltical correctness and virtue signaling is making that impossible.   I am not sure if people just have more time on their hands or they are much more sensitivity but it will create and has created a lot of collateral damage.   The left will always eat their own because leftism is more of a religion then an ideology.   That side will never be satisfied.   It will just continue until corporations and most importantly people do not apologize and give social media what they want.   The problem is the fear that if these businesses do not cave they will have their livelihoods destroyed.   But as I have tried to explain the left has this impossible standard that they themselves can not adhere.   But that does not matter the left does not have to follow their impossible  guidelines just everyone else.   I am not going to pretend that virtue signaling does not exists on the right it does and it should not be tolerated on either side that is why I am cynical.   I think humor is extremely important for our survival.   I do not think this will happen especially at this point but society has to rediscover it’s sense of humor.  

Failling

What has happened that there are so many people  that wish ill on other people?   There are either groups that are happy to see someone fail or distory someone while virtue signaling how righteous they are.   This is not healthy for any society.   People harassing those that they wish to distory I guess what is known as trolling but it is just a sad time.   That is why I am not optimistic about the future because of social media and the cruelness that is happening.   I am all for the 1^st amendment and I believe if there are limits on freedom of speech that is a slippery slope but this  is not healthy for any society.   If the most important question any society can ask as Dennis Prager says is how to make good and moral indviuals we are truly failing.   I think it is immaturity and shame driven.   I will not apologize to these groups I am not sure how any of this will be prevented at this point we have gone to far.   The only thing that can be done is not apologizing  and giving into these groups.   The problem is a lot of employers are givening into these groups and many fear that if they do not comply they will lose their jobs.   I discussed that joy and humor has been eliminated that life’s little joys are going away.     We will not agree on what is funny and what is not but the attempt is extremely important because life is diffcult for everyone and sometimes the best humor is found in tension.   A lot of times it is best to laugh at what is happening but it truly is heartbreaking.   I love escapes and it is needed especially with all the fear that the media and social media try to instill in all of us everyone needs an escape but do not use those escapes to avoid problems.   Many psychologists say that is why many people use social media because they want to avoid their real problems so they go on these platforms to act as if everything is okay so it can be an addiction just like anything else.   What bothers me and confuses me the most is the virtue signaling and the tattling that is constanly happening.   What makes it worse young children are now being subjected  to all of this it is no wonder  there is so much unhappiness and anxiety out there.   What is known as the greatest generation was happier than this current generation even though they had to deal with a lot more problems that we could not even imagine  they lost loved ones and there was a lot of uncertainity but they still retained a level optimism and happiness.   What I choose to do now is to be kind not perfect but kind and try to support people that I may disagree but we not tear down but will build up by ignoring them but will support when I can again not perfect but I will reflect when necessary.   Because if anyone strives for perfection which no one can that will create agitation which I think should be eliminated or limited as much as possible.   

"Live for now should not be the message

There are many commercials that are geared with the message live for now.   That is a horrible message to send.   I think now especially with social media and the like more and more people are living for the now.   I can tell everyone for a fact that the notion of living for the now is a destructive and dangerous notion.   For example: the people who brought homes that they could not afford and the bubble burst I am willing to admit to everyone I am not sure what happened but they probably lived for now we will worry about what comes next later.   I respect those who had the four sight to think ahead.   But with social media and blogs people forget that there is  a future.   I am all for the 1^st amendment but I think it can be abused very much so.   I think having a discourse could be a positive but I think because of the media it is not possible at this point.   So I think social media is truly being used for evil if I woke up one day and social media was gone I would be extremely satisfied if I could make  a suggestion get off social media and youtube we have turned into a group of people who tattle and virtual  signal every chance we get.   Human beings should be able to tell off color jokes if they wish.   Humor has always been a great equalizer.   Now many may not think something is humorous but that is why it is called a sense.   Life is tragic and there are so many comedians in the past that turned their personal struggles into brilliant comedy they definitely payed a price for that but there is a lot of tragedy in comedy.   My brother thinks a lot of things I believe are not funny to be so.   I am not sure if that is just a way of dealing with the tragedies that we will all eventually face.   A lot of people use humor as  a shield to deal with the confession of life.   There is so much chaos in this world most of the time I think what does it all mean is it all for nothing?     One of my favorite musicans Meredith Brooks wrote a song called all for nothing on her wonderful album: Deconstruction this album is so well rounded that is not the word I  am searching there is a word for music that  is differential.   I will not apologize unless I do something wrong which I do every day.   But there is so much bullying and angrier out there I truly believe that most people especially young people do not believe in free speech.   The whole notion of freedom of speech is very confusing especially because both the left and right both believe there side is being censored.   The left thinks they are not being allow to speak at conservative universities and conservatives believe they are being censored at every other universities.   I think because on Youtube the algorithms have not yet been figured out yet their guidelines are not clear.   I think so many people especially certain Christans are lying to themselves they use religion to explain everything nothing explains everything science does not explain everything having a philosophy of life does not explain everything.   For example: cancer cells multiply just as fast in a good person the same way it does in a bad person if those same cells only multiped in bad people there would be no reason to be good.   I got this prospective from reading: Happiness is a serious problem.   I am not a fan of going all in ideologically  whether that is political or religious ideologies that is why I think I confuse people so much.   For example: if you are on the right you have to be outraged by everything on the left and if you are on the left you must be outraged by everything on the right.   I know everyone that is successful has to have a strong point of view and if  they go away from that you risk being fired and most of the time I am not sure why? There is  an old saying about chasing dragons that the people who are hustling and successful they are all chasing dragons.   But if you are not careful you will basically  end up just chasing the wind so to speak and  not appreciate what you have.   The notion that got me to think about this was reading “Not Taco Bell Material” by: Adam Carolla that when  he was at his low points working construction he never thought this would be a good story on a morning radio show or podcast.   Or Joe Rogan when he worked construction jobs he felt like he was being poisoned.   Henry Rollins said in that same interview that it is not poison and they mean well but they are coming from a different value system.   That Joe was lucky that at 21 he found stand up because he felt that he was being pulled in so many different directions and he just thought I am going to do what I want.   I hope people know that I am struggling a lot with this but I am trying to know myself because very few people look from when in because it is difficult and painful to do.   But everyone is now being forced into silence because they are scared that they will be fired by their employer.   But I do not have a problem listening to people but what I  am petrified by that if someone says something that someone is offended by they must be destroyed at all cost even if the comment or joke was not directed at the them.   This all goes back for me outrage culture boredom and narcissism.   The constant addiction to screens phones and having the need to be reached at all times and if you do not answer a text imminently people think you are dead this is killing our society.   I do not have a problem keeping my mouth shut.   For example: Bill Duke has said in interviews that acting is not pretending it is reacting.   That is why stage actors are better then other actors because they only have moments to react.   So what I am hoping for is that we can start listening to each other instead of just tearing everyone down and burning everything down.   I mean only as a metaphor only but I do not need to be re educated by the left or a group of people who just want to be a part of a cause.   For example: I take responsibility.    There are moments in my life where I try to be to much of a people pleaser without even thinking about it.   But I am constantly working on it.   I hope I can find a balance of some kind.   Because the truth is you cannot please most people even a small amount of time.   I am not the best at small talk but I  try my best.   There are times when I am comfortable with silence I just do not think we all need to be stipulated  at all times your brain needs time to reset just like a computer.   But at the same  time I hear especially young children require structure.   But even I need to feel like a kid again even though I want to be mature and evolve.   But when I listen to music and I get that feeling again I feel like that kid again in other words I am brought back to life again.   Life is fleeting so that is why I do not want to focus on dumb trivial issues which is what the media and social media focus on.   How many times do I hear Twitter is blowing up?   Way to much but what if we all choose to ignore what is blowing up on Twitter?   I have an idea we would all be much happier not giving these platforms our time because they operate on fear and intimidation.   I think the best thing we all can do is stop apologizing and giving in.   I truly worry about the future of this country and the main things that concerns me is the intimidation of having to comprise your values just to have a decent income.   I do not criticize those who have to do so but it  is just a troubling time and it is happening at such an enormous rate.   What I want is for people to pursue happiness has much as possible.   That does not guarantee it because as I have said most people are unable to follow their dreams.   

Perseervence

Persistence and the act of it is a noble goal but most people will never accomplish their dreams or they will not be able to make a living.   Most people have passion but that does not mean you will be successful doing what you are passionate.   But at the same time I respect those who kept on persistenting no matter what they were told.   They said in essence “alright I’ll get it next time”.   They did not say I am doing the best I can.   Those are two different prospectives.   I think instead of being reached constantly because of technology it is killing us.   I really wish we could hit the reset button that would be a utopia to use a left-wing term.   I really wish we could go back to that survival instinct that I think we all have but we need to go back there.   Cavemen we are not that far behind that.   Because if they did not have enough food logs fire etc they would die.   A lot of this is shown on the History Channel which if they do not do tasks during certain seasons their families  will die.   I think we need to bring back that survival mechanism instead of paying attention to social media and emails.   All that will do is cause generations to be angry depressed and paranoid.   The only way human beings will find fulfillment is looking outside of themselves.   The more anyone thinks about themselves and their circumstances the more unhappy and misery you will cause yourself and those around you.   Those who are able to see the needs of others will be more fulfilled.   But here is the issue I seem to struggle I internalize  to way too much so there is a balance there which I am trying to accomplish which I am trying to master but I think it is a daily pursuit much like happiness.   Which I struggle but I think everyone does but happiness is a constant pursuit.   One factor that will cause people to be unhappy is a victim mentality believing you are a part of a marginalized group those indviuals will always have a chip on their shoulders.   That is why I believe there is so much unhappiness out there because of the victim mentality.   I think there is a belief by young people but some older folks that are finding meaning in social media I am not joking there are people who are getting their self-worth through social media and the like.   If there are groups growing  up out there that are activists on social media and there getting their meaning and self-worth and meaning by creating #Hastings we are going to turn on ourselves which is already happening.   I think social media and the constant need to be reached at all times is making everyone miserable.   We are already turning on ourselves.   I think any psychologist will tell you that social media and the constant use of it has created unintentional consequences that will last generational.   I wonder how many people have achieved their dreams and believe they will be happy but then they get it and become depressed?   Because they neglected so much of their time from their family and friends?   My last post was about how fear distorting us as indviuals.   Adam Carolla wrote: in his book I’m Emotional Support Animal which is extremely refreshing and threptic at the same time that calmest people that he has met are mixed martial artists and Indy car racers I think the main reason is that despite of their fear and the risks involved they are willing to take that chance which is not the absences of fear but pushing through it.   But that the Indy car racer would not want to trade with the MMA fighter because they know  what their strengths and weakness are.   I do not think it is wise to tell young people that they do not need to go to college or graduate school because everyone needs something to fall back Denzel Washington says he does not want anything to fall back on he wants to fall forward.   Back to persistence I respect that and it may go back to the principal found in Chris Jericho’s book: No is a four-letter word not taking no for an answer.   Which is a principle found in  the movie Tommy Boy.   So I respect those who are able to find a way and do for themselves but not everyone is able to do that.   Many people do not have an option to not go to college or graduate school.   To suggest that I did not need to go to college or graduate school so no one else needs to either is not helpful.   Not everyone needs to go but they should consider it.   There seems to be a lot of intimidation out there out there because of social media and the elimination of ideas there are organization whose sole purpose is to convince a martialized group that they are victims and any criticism  of that must be eliminated.   The left’s goal is to eliminate anything that others may get joy.   An example: humor any and all humor must be eliminated because it may cause unintended offense.   I do not think we are evolving as people we are only de evolving we are only getting weaker.   I am not the best at dealing with reality on reality’s terms. I just cannot handle a lot of it.   There is a certain amount of luck in this world or I will use the term blessed people are blessed to be Americans and they are blessed to have good parents and health.   That is the real  privilege we have.   I think that is the message we should be sending young people.   Younger generations saying that if you are not mean on social media that you are just to old and that is just the way it is I truly hate that.   Younger generations rejecting wisdom because they view older people to be Neanderthals will only end badly.   Bill Duke said something and he never forgot it he said: “when I was a young man I believed my father to be a fool now that I am older oh how wise he has become because when you are young you think you know every damn thing and the people that you  don’t  listen to wait until you get some scars on you will realize how dumb those people really are”?   Wait until the world slaps you in the face towards it’s in difference towards you”.   I mean the word slap only metaphor ally but it is true.   There so many phrases words that are now triggered  and the confusing aspect it is constantly changing which I believe we are de evolving.   That is why I pray for God’s Holy Sprit to guide us and come into those lives that are broken.   Which I need to add we all are.  

Fear is another aspect that hurting us as: indvuiauls

Fear is another aspect that is hurting us as indviuals.   There are rational fears but the more we protect everyone from everything the weaker the less satisfied they will become.   Here are  two examples: that first come to my mind: famers the main reason I believe is  the satisfaction they receive from the work they do.   Trunk drivers especially those that drive in the snow.   But trunk drivers in general are the indviuals who do the work that make the other part of the country work.   What many in the media refer to as: Flyovers I have always had respect for farming but I gained a lot more respect for these indviuals after reading Dana Loesch’s book “Flyover Nation You Can’t Run A Country You’ve Never Been To.   Those who rise above their fears will live a full life.   The more calluses you get the more your skin will toughen up and you will get stronger.   The more tasks that are challenging your mind and exercise  your body you need both like most things in life it comes down to moderation.   Which is difficult to do because we live in an instant grandafaction society which again has caused unintended consequences.   Just like big tech no one knows how to control it which is competly how out of control.   The left and the right all claim that there are victims of censorship TYT clam that colleges have stopped them from speaking and that those who have left TYT will say anything just for money.   I am all for the 1^st amendment and whether   I like it or not social media Youtube and Google are here to stay.   I would love to hit the resent button but at this point that is not possible.   Google’s stated goal is to collect has much data on it users as possible in order to make them feel more alienated and depressed.   I am not sure what a classical liberal is but Dave Rubin and Glenn Beck classify themselves as: classical liberals.   Dennis Prager makes the distinction between liberal and left but I would argue that they are one in the same I just do not think many in the democrat party realize this if  you believe in classical liberalism you have more in common with conservatives and the republican party  then the other side.   Even if you are like me and you do not consider yourself a conservative yet.   I respect Ana Kasparian of TYT I respect her passion I believe she is a genuine person. I do not like the personal attacks that is what turns me away from caring.   I think even if you are a moderate  I think you have more in common with the repbulican party then the left.   TYT claims that Turning Point USA and Prager U are brain washing young people’s minds there is no winning or comprise.   The Young Turks are a progressive network.   I am not sure if there is a comprise because if you go away from the lock step in anyway you are a grifter in some way.   I am not suggesting that there are not grifters out there.   I respect those who are authentic in their beliefs  and values which is getting more challenging to do.   Chameleons drive me up a wall which is getting easier for people to do.   All of this is a turn off for me and I think many others.   Dennis Prager: says many times that the most important question any society can ask is how to make people good because human nature is not basically good and because God is good he wants us to be good.   Not saints but good. I need to address the brainwash  claim Prager U and Turning Point USA are not brainwashing anyone I believe their goal is and has always been to expose young people to different ideas that for the most part they have not been exposed to in college and graduate school.   Just like TYT is not brainwashing conservatives  and republicans.   I must say that if any student is triggered by ideas we are creating weak people.