There is a dreamer born every second:

 I never want to lose my prospective on what is the most important in life which to be honest is an easy thing to do because I really love living in my fantasy world or an escape.   I really never want to be famous or well known my whole goal with this project has been and remains to give proper recognition to musicans and bands that I truly do love music that truly is my favorite stuff and I have written about personal issues that I have had in my life and in doing so it has made me feel much better extremely healing.    One of the things I wrote about in the last section was about how there are more people for you then against you it is an important notion to keep in mind navigating this society which to me makes absolutely no sense to me.   But the most important aspect to all of this is to not give into the idea of fame.   But unfortunaly it usually takes a tragedy to realize how much people are for you it is difficult to explain but again I think it is part of human nature.   But my main goal is and as been to expose musicans and bands that I love much like Eddie Trunk I am not comparing myself to Eddie Trunk I am not even in his league but he really has influenced me I have so much respect for him because he keeps the hard rock heavy metal alive for those who love it.   I really am happy that I discovered Lynn Hoffman I discovered her stuff later then I wished I had but the aspects about Lynn Hoffman that I respect is her positivity she is smiling and uses humor to it much like Melissa Santos I always loved her positive energy always smiling and her passion as a professional wrestling  fan which we all love.   We may have different aspects of professional wrestling  that we like or dislike but the most important thing I have realized that the most important thing is that they are fans.   Melissa is definitely missed by me hosting Impact on Twitch.   The same thing with hard rock heavy metal the most important thing is that we are all fans and I hope that fans are able to preserve this type of music because if it is not it will go away.   I do not want to see that happened because this music has helped me and brought me so much joy in my life and I hope it does the same for others but the only way to do that fans have to be aware of the music which is getting harder and harder to do.   I think and I am guilty of this fans become blinded by their passion which takes the fun and joy out of much of this.   I have no problem with debate that is competly different what I am referring to the personal attacks that takes so much energy and the fun out of this.   For example: jump from: Van Halen I do not like the keyboards and many other hardcore Van Halen fans such as: Eddie Trunk were not fans of the keyboards in jump but I am not going to attack someone who likes jump because they are still fans.   I prefer Sammy Hagar in Van Halen over David Lee Roth but that is not  to say that Roth is not  a great performer and entertainer I love more of the Van Halen album 50150 and I would also agree that when Sammy joined Van Halen they become a different band.   But the point I would never personally attack someone who disagrees with me because they are fans.   Or if a fan wants to blame Gary Cherone for Van Halen 3  I disagree because Gary Cherone takes much of the blame for Van Halen 3 from many Van Halen purest because I do not think it is deserved I think if you are going to blame anyone for Van Halen 3 the blame should go to Eddie Van Halen and his brother Alex because it was always their band.   Much like Bon Jovi has always been Jon Bon Jovi band but I would never personally attack someone who disagreed with me.   I have often wondered about the idea of pursuing your dreams because I  wondered how those who pursue their dreams how do they do that and not end up alienating and having their family despise them?   But as Dennis Prager wrote in his excellent book Happiness is a Serious Problem  there is a price  for everything in life there is a price  for doing something and a price for not doing something.   I try to put other people before myself and I think about perceived slights from people I have been told that I do not talk that much and I was unaware of it until they pointed it out.   Another example: professional wrestling I love chain wrestling: for example: Chris Benoit and Bobby Roode but I also love the USWA/WCCW Memphis rasslin style as well but I will  not criticize my brother for instance for not liking that product because he is still a fan.   What I love most about the Memphis style of rasslin is they protected exactly what they sold the fans which I wish more  of the industry would follow suit.   I am really looking forward to Rebellion this Sunday April 25th LIVE from : Nashville.   The Main Event: Rich Swan the Impact World Champion and Kenny Omega with: Don Calis this is going to be once in a generational dream match I have to admit I am not really familiar with Kenny Omega’s work.   Which is difficult for many to believe but it is the truth.   According to many industry insiders Kenny Omega is the best professional wrestling in the world today.   So I think this will be truly an historic match and with: Mauro Ranallo on commentary: makes this match more intriguing.   I love the packages that Impact has done for this match with: Mauro narrating the packages.   I am not familiar with Kenny Omega’s work but I do not like his arrogance I hope that will be his downfall during this match.   I am also looking forward to the match between Sami Callihan and Trey Miguel in a last man standing match.   Sami has told Trey that he is only trying to help Trey get his passion for the business and wanted Trey to join Sami this past Thursday on Impact on AXSTV and Twitch but Trey declined the offer so Sami attacked him.   I am also looking forward to Fin Juice the current Impact World Tag Team Champions defending  against the Good Brothers.   This will be the first time they will be in the ring since Fin Juice beat them for the Impact Tag Team titles because Fin Juice has  been defending the Impact World Tag Team Champions in Japan so it is going to be cool.   I know a lot fans do not like Sami Callihan but I really like  him because he is authentic I love his entrance and I enjoy his in ring work but what I enjoy most about him is his persona.   So Rebellion this Sunday should be excellent and it is worth repeating: there are more people for you then against you that you probably do not even know which is the sadness  point.   Sid Note: Tommy Dreamer said on  a speical on Impact on AXSTV narratived: by Mauro Ranallo  that he believes that the relationship between AEW has been one sided because when the wrestlers from Impact are on Dynamite AEW on TNT they are not acknowledged but when AEW wrestlers are on Impact on AXSTV they are put over by the announcers.   Side Note: put over in professional wrestling means to either be popular or unpopular.   Eddie Trunk said something in metal recycle bin that in 1991 when Grunge hit all of those 80s musicans and bands went away meaning those two types of rock could not co-exist  and Eddie could not understand why?   That he knew it was different but he did not understand why a radio playlist could not play a song from  for example: Def Leppord and then play a song from Alice in Chains.   But instead the 80s hard rock scene became uncool so the playlist became the Grunge scene and the 1970s.   It is odd that no other era was singled out like the 1980s.   For example: and I think this clarifies my point: No one focuses on the fashion of the 1970s they just focus on the music so my question is why can’t fans do the same with 80s hard rock?   Because in the 1990s when grudge and alternative rock was gaining traction the pejorative of hair metal was made up but sometimes that term is unavoidable because fans have to be aware of the music you are referring because people such as: myself and those that are younger who are rediscovering this music do not realize that the term “hair metal” was made up in the 1990s to make fun of the era that it was style over substance.   Myself for instance did not realize that the term “hair metal” was a pejorative until I heard Eddie Trunk talk about it on his radio show that program directors look down and dismiss  this music because they believe that is just silly “hair bands”.   But here is something odd Kip Winger cut his hair and is still  considered a hair band.   Even though he cut his hair and does not wear the fashion of the 80s but his music is still dismissed by the mainstream even though because of the internet it lives on because younger generations are discovering it.   There are fans who criticize Eddie for being on a channel called Hair Nation he does not own the channel that is why when he is on his radio show is called Trunk Nation.   So sometimes using that term is unavoidable but I try to avoid unless I think I need to do so.   But to me I believe just like Eddie that is still  hard rock grudge and alternative rock are different but I do not know why they could not have mushed.   Back to Rebellion this Sunday I really like that Kenny Omega has Don Calis in his corner well I understand because Don has known Kenny since he was 10 years old so Don has been sort of an uncle to Kenny but Kenny Omega is the AEW Champion and Don Calis is one of the Vice Presidents of Impact Wrestling so I believe much like Eddie Edwards that Don Callis has turned his back on Impact I am not sure why?   I understand his association with Kenny Omega but he has definitely turned his back on Scott D’amore which Scott is not surprised because he has known Don Callis for 25 years Scott said in an interview on This is Rebellion on AXSTV narrated: by Mauro Ranallo that anyone who is surprised by Don Callis’s actions do not know what makes him tick that is pretty harsh from a friend that he has known for 25 years but The Innovator of Violence: Tommy Dreamer said something similar  in This is Rebellion on AXSTV  that the relationship between AEW and Impact has been one sided because when he hears some of the stuff Tony Schavone has said on about Impact Wrestling “that he would like to slap his fat face because when you are  trying to form a relationship with another company there is no need to be disrespectful.   I agree with Tommy and as a fan of Tony Schavone that is extremely disappointing.   Side Note: That is not exactly what Tommy said it is just similar.   I am really excited that Mauro Ranallo is commenting: this main event title for title match against Rich Swan and Kenny Omega I think this will be a once in a generationally match up I would like to see Rich Swan retain the Impact Championship and become the new AEW Champion and is Kenny Omega has good as the critics claim?   Because I already know that Kenny Omega is Dave Melzer’s favorite always giving his matches 5 stars but Jim Ross someone I truly vaule  and respect said in the This is Rebellion speical that he is not crazy about Kenny Omega’s attiude these days but bell to bell in his opinion Kenny Omega is the best all around professional wrestler right now.   Tommy Dreamer also said something that surprised me he said Kenny  Omega did something that he has never seen he had a perfect match I am not sure what that means but because Tommy remains my all time favorite professional wrestler: I take what he says seriously.   But there is more and I heard Tommy say this there is more to professional wrestling then a good match such as: an entrance.   I  am only pointing this out because I agree I think way too many fans focus on how good the matches are and that is it.   That is okay because if that is what they enjoy most that is fine because they are still fans.   But I think because professional wrestling is not a sport it is art  the industry is able to do things that traditional sport could not do.   For example: The Undertaker’s entrance the gong or the costume music from ECW: Tommy Dreamer using man in the box: from Alice in Chain or Raven using come out and play by: The Offspring.   Or most recently Jungle Boy using: Tarzan Boy from: Baltmora hearing that song on AEW Dynamite last night instantly gave him creditability in my opinion.    I have to admit that if Kenny Omega wins at Rebellion I will be upset because of his arrogance and his cockiness.   Omega does not need to proof anything to me he already seems to be the internet’s favorite Dave Meltzer’s favorite.   Meltzer is considered a wrestling expert a lot fans seem to value his opinions.   Tommy Dreamer is skeptical because of the one sidedness of the relationship with AEW and Impact and the history of the business example: USWA in Memphis and WCCW in Texas after Superclash 3 the relationship between USWA and WCCW dissolved.   I will agree that the relationship between AEW and Impact has definitely between one sided Sami Callihan has said that Impact Wrestling has been the red headed stepchild of the industry  for years or everytime there is a sense of negative  information about it the internet and internet wrestling fans are always ready to pounce on Impact.   Don Calls has said his getting back in the business was not doing a podcast with Lance Storm called Killing the Town it all started at the Tokyo Dome setting up the match between Chris Jericho and Kenny Omega then becoming the vice president: of Impact Wrestling it was all about Kenny Omega becoming the AEW Champion if that is true that is sick!   Impact really needs to start sticking up for the banner because despite the turn off in talent Impact has remained  an excellent product.   Don Calls refers to himself as The Invisible Hand so it really maybe true when Don says that this was the plan all along he has always been one step a head of even Scott D’amore.   I do not think Scott ever knew of this plan between Don Callis and Kenny Omega but he does not seem to be surprised because as I said earlier Scott has known Don for 25 years and those who are surprised by this do not know what makes Don tick.   But as I said I do not think Scott was aware of this plan he seems like one of the honest ones.   I am really looking forward to Rebellion this Sunday night the main event between Rich Swan will be a once in generational match and it will change the trajectory of at least those two companies and maybe the entire industry.   This is one of those times where I wish I was a part of Impact because I am such a hardcore fan.   There are some fans who dismiss anything that does not happen in the WWE I am going to say something that will surprise a lot of you because it surprises me I understand that prospective.   My only issue with the WWE if you want to call it that I would call it a difference in philosophy the guys who wink wink at  the camera and play wrestler and the WWE’s philosophy in my opinion openly saying that this is all make belief I hate that one of the aspects of the Memphis  pretention that I loved they protected what they sold the audience which to me makes all the difference in the world.   Roman Reigns does not play wrestler even though I am really not familiar  with his in ring work he is believable and he has gotten so much hate from the internet because I believe that there were internet fans who believed Roman Reigns was being shoved down their throats which is why I think he became a bad guy and Paul Heyman became his advocate.   Joey Ryan is an example of someone who makes fun of professional wrestling I am not against comedy in wrestling but there is a difference between good funny and bad funny.   The Rock for example gave hilarious promos but backed it up in the ring.   I am really enjoying the program between Sami Callihan and Trey that Sami is trying to get his passion out of Trey but then Sami wanted Trey to join him in which Trey declined which set up their last man standing match at Rebellion this Sunday April 25th.   One of the things about Sami I never know what he is up he always seems to be ahead of everyone else.   A lot of fans do not like Sami because of the baseball bat incident with Eddie Edwards but that incident transformed Eddie into more of a hardcore style because he had a program with Tommy Dreamer and Tommy bestowed upon Eddie his own Singapore Cain which Eddie named Kenny.   So I would suggest that the ball bat incident really benefited Eddie Edwards Tommy Dreamer has said he is not sure how it would have been handled the angle he had with Sandman where he blinded him in ECW.   But ECW those in the company were renegades where they were allowed to do a lot of things that would be considered illegal so maybe it was a blessing that ECW flew under the radar.   The main thing I am ashamed of I wish I discovered ECW before 1999 when they debuted on TNN but when I saw ECW it looked like more of a rock concert then a traditional wrestling event.   I am eternally greatful that when TMZ asked Sami to apologize he doubled down and said he would do it again!   Now that is how you do it.   I am going to be upset if Kenny Omega becomes a double champion I will be upset but I will not stop watching the show I need the escape and I love the product.   I am an Impact fan or mark if you will I need the escape especially right now.   Mauro Ranallo requested: to be at Rebellion that just shows how huge this event is. I love the video packages that set up this match between Rich Swan and Kenny Omega extremely well done by Impact Wrestling!   There are going  to be two referees for this once and a generational dream match up from what I understand.   I have been asked why I continued to support Impact and it may have to do with that I have supported the company from day one I knew this company was special despite the turnover in talent it  is just well booked especially during this era.   Kenny Omega has been called the best bout machine and Dave Meltzer gives his matches 7 stars he changed his scale.   Fiona Flanagan once wrote nobody dies of a broken heart that is a good song but that is not true.   Nobody dies of a broken heart is on the album Squeeze.   Someone should do a game where everytime I mention Squeeze and Fiona Flangan through out this tome:  should take a drink see how that works.   To me Fiona Flanagan will always be Little MRS. Dangerous from Miami Vice which is also a song by: Ted Nugent Little MRS. Dangerous: is my favorite Ted Nugent song it features a perfect guitar riff.   Chris Jarman someone I first discovered listening to on 981 the Max started in radio with an internship: with Bad Dog John Mccormack for the wake-up crew with Tim Bev and Bad Dog on Rock 103.   I have wondered because The Jar mentioned Bad Dog a lot on his show on 981 the Max I did not take much into account his reverence for Bad Dog because a lot of people who listened to Rock 103 considered Bad Dog an influence so I did not realize Jarman  was an intern for Bad Dog and this is where Drake from Drake and Zeke first met Jarman was at the wake up crew morning show on Rock 103.   Then Jarman would go to 981 the Max with Danni Bruns and Drake and Zeke would eventually follow.   It is odd how life works out but what I will remember most is the on air relationship and friendship between The Jar and Danni had an amazing chemistry and repour on the air and has much as: I always made a habit of listening to Danni because I always knew she would make me laugh and she was having fun doing it.   That seems to be a theme with me doesn’t it?   It does appeal to me not so much fun but people who enjoy whatever they are doing!   I am not against fun by the way it depends on what that fun is when I think of fun I think of partying I have never really liked parties.   But that enthusiasm  that Danni had made me an instant fan.   That same humor inspired me to listen to Drake and Zeke at night I would listen to the radio and just silly it really gave me such joy and inspiration that is something I do not take for granted it is powerful.   I started listening: to Drake and Zeke on Rock 103 in the afternoons so when I discovered that Drake and Zeke had a replay of their morning show at night on 981 the Max I remembered the joy that I received from listening on Rock 103 so I made an appointment listening.   Chris Jarman just had a joyous and infectious personality and because Danni would take Ben Ferguson down an inch  I love her.   I have often thought about the cost between pursuing one’s dreams and the notion of being selfish the idea of being selfish is something I definitely take into account and there is a price with everything life on the one hand I respect those who are persistence but what are you willing to give up is the question that should be asked?   If you have your family support that is half the battle because most of the time family members want you to go the traditional  route and they mean well.   But Henry Rollins realized whatever it is in having a real job he knew he did not have it.   Which Henry emphasized is not poison but they are coming from a different value system that he does not have.   I think that is human nature working against me the idea  of my being occupied with number 1 makes no sense to me.   Anyone who thinks happiness is a simple subject has not thought through the issue or those who think you are either happy or you are not I wish it were that simplistic.   Or those who think everyone choices to be happy and relatively speaking most people want to be happy but it is definitely not a choice for everybody.   I think the best thing my parents did for my brother and me is they did not dote on us meaning I did not grow up thinking I was the end all be all I spent a lot of time alone using my imagination and had my own thoughts.   I miss those times because I really had to develop my imagination which with all the screens I think that has taken away much of the imagination I had to use to entertain myself I would impersonate entertainers that I admired more specifically VJs on MTV and VH1 I did not grow up listening to a lot of radio but I did admire it.   I have worked through a lot of personal issues through out these sections and my hope is to work though the idea of being selfish that is my goal.   Tiffany Hendra once said that you are right where you are supposed to be  that is extremely comforting because let’s face it most people want to be in control over everything so that is why it is comforting to let go I think there can be freedom in letting go.   There are people who freak if the slightest thing goes wrong and I hate to admit this but I understand that notion but those who freak out when the slightest thing goes wrong are usually un pleasant to be around so one of my goals and Dennis Prager mentioned on one of his fireside  chats it is a good goal to be easy or learn how to be easy that is definitely a goal  I have had  even before I heard Dennis talk about it.   I think my brother thinks I can be a little to easy or laid back or I can be a little up tight so I am not sure how that co exists but it seems to do so.   The one thing I may have an issue is the notion that if you do not get married you do not grow up I understand what he means by that in some ways but in other ways I do not that is the main reason someone wants to grow up and that if you do not get married in some ways you do not grow up which makes sense but I am not sure the longer I have lived I am not sure marriage is for everyone.   I do not trust many people because I much like Dennis Prager I do not believe human nature is basically good.   But I will say in meeting in new people I love letting  my guard down Neil Peart the drummer for the rock band Rush was  accused by fans who first meet Neil believed he was arrogant but that was not the case at all I saw an interview: with Eddie Trunk on VH1 Classic the program was called “Hangin’ with Eddie Trunk this interview took place in 2006.   This goes back to not making snap judgements Neil probably did not like the heavy media attention and maybe the fanaticism of certain fans.   Eddie Trunk gave this wonderful advice in meeting your favorite musicans and bands just act normal do not freak out just treat them like you would anyone else.   When Ronnie James Dio would have fans say they were nervous talking to him and how much his music ment to them he would say I am a person just like you!   I think that is the best way to handle it Lynn Hoffman also said that Neil was  not arrogant that he was just media shy he was actually kind.   I need to go back to what Tiffany Hendra said about how you are right where you need to be I think that is true it all has to do with faith I have noticed that when people start talking about faith they usually tune out the main aspect of faith is you can try to explain it but I really do not think anyone will start to believe until they feel it and have that experience but I love the idea of not rushing and the idea of not having instant grandafaction I think that is a huge problem especially with young people.   I am really excited about Rebellion tomorrow night April 25th there are plenty of matches that I am looking forward Sami Callihan and Trey Miguel in a last man standing match I think this match will take Trey to the absolute next level this is not in Trey’s wheel house he is a great competitor but I do not know if this is the best idea in fact I think this  may be a trap set by Sami.   I think Sami really wanted to bring the passion out of Trey but I think Trey refusing  to join Sami made him angry which I think set up this last man standing match but I think Trey will take it to another gear he has in order to survive against Sami Callihan.   Also in the main event: between the Impact Champion Rich Sawn  and the AEW Champion Kenny Omega: I think there will be two referees one from Impact and the other from AEW I am really not sure how fair this match will be because Kenny Omega will have The Inviable Hand Don Callis and The Good Brothers in his corner and where does Don Callis’s and The Good Brothers loyalties lie because I know The Good Brothers are in Impact and are looking to regain the Impact  World Tag Team Titles from Fin Juice but Fin Juice took the Impact World Tag Team Titles to Japan: after they defeated The Good Brothers to become the new Impact Tag Team Titles  but Good Brothers have been on AEW Dynamite on TNT and they are with: Don Calis and Kenny Omega.   So it seems to me much like Tommy Dreamer that the relationship between AEW and Impact has been one sided which benefits AEW and not Impact Wrestling: I do not understand why Impact has been the internet’s wiping boy it does not matter to me because they are still fans.   I really am against personal attacks it is one of the negatives of social media are the negative acts it is not the same as having a difference of opinion or even a debate is fine.   But personal attacks are not necessary.   Especially things that are subjective much like music it is okay to have a difference of opinion or a debate but again personal attacks ruin it for a lot of people.   I am really hoping that Rich Swan defends Kenny Omega tomorrow night at Rebellion and it does not matter what I think of Kenny Omega’s personality or his in ring work I need to stress again that I am really not familiar: with Kenny Omega in ring or his promos but I can say I do not like his attitude.   It seems as if that the Invisible Hand has put his own interest above Impact’s the last time I checked Don is still one of the executive Vice President of Impact Wrestling and I have to admit the Invisible Hand always seems to be one step ahead of everyone in the business:  including: Dave Meltzer Kenny is MR. Melzer’s favorite he awards his matches 7 stars so there is definitely something I am missing about Kenny Omega and just having great matches is only one aspect that makes a good professional wrestler there are fans on the internet  who only focus on how good the matches are which I think is a mistake.   Dave Melzer seems always defend any style of wrestling he will argue well the demographics say or for that audience it is true that the USWA/WCCW Memphis and Texas rassling style would  not connect with the WWE sports entertainment presentation but I do not know how anyone can defend Joey Ryan’s dick flip and I can defend The Rock’s people’s elbow and I loved Scotty 2 Hotty’s  worm and in the context of a wrestling match I defend Al Snow knocking someone out with a plastic head.   I am hoping that Rich Sawn wins tomorrow night at Rebellion on April 25th LIVE: in Nashville  I will always support the Impact banner and Rich Sawn is an Impact Champion I cannot be prouder. Whatever happens after this match it will change direction of the entire industry and this type of match may never happened again!   Two world champions facing each other to see who is the better man this is a once in a generationally matchup: Mauro Ranallo requested to be at Rebellion and will be on commentary during the main event: between Rich Sawn and Kenny Omega!   I love both of the video packages that Mauro narrates the 5 ways that both Rich Sawn and Kenny Omega can defend the other: I am privileged  to be a part of Rebellion as a lifelong  fan of professional wrestling it is my pleasure!   I hope that Mauro will do more with Impact after this historic once in a lifetime match up!   I have always enjoyed  Mauro’s commentary his passion I did watch some Pride Ultimate Fighting with Mauro on commentary and I not  really an MMA fan I respect it but it really is not my thing I respect it I truly do.   Gina Carano almost got me into MMA I love Gina sticking her tongue out: is wonderful!   Mauro commented for Elite XC Combat on CBS and Showtime.    Gina was a part of this group as well.   I am definitely more of a fan of Gina that she stood up for her beliefs when the woke mob went after her.   I also loved the movie Haywire.   Moose returned  to Impact this past Thursday on Impact on AXSTV he warned Rich Sawn that he better not loose that Impact Championship to Kenny Omega at Rebellion tonight Sunday April 25th Rich defended Moose to unify both the Impact and TNA Championships at Sacrifice so Rich Sawn and Moose do not like each other but they are united in their loyalty to Impact  I would like to thank both Scott D’amore of Impact and Tony Khan of AEW for making this match possible!   I need to thank The Invisible Hand Don Calis for being the mastermind who set this once in a generational dream matchup!   I think no matter what happens this match will change the entire industry!   Tiffany  Bolton was the CO host of Beat the Geeks she was sort of the Vanna White but I would argue that Tiff was much better then Vanna I always enjoyed Tiff.   Tiffany Bolton is the same person as Hendra they are the exact same person.   “50 years ago a dreamer was born and there is a group of dreamers in the back”.   Tommy Dreamer.   One of the standards that people use is your mark on others  are you pleasant to be around are you helpful?   Or do you make people miserable?   There are people who will not like you no matter what you do you cannot please everyone so do not try!   There are people who are always down on something and this goes for certain Christans as well some of them need to lighten up just a little bit.   God does not want anyone to be miserable  for their entire  lives one of negatives about imagination is you are the only one can see it so God shows you a coming attraction he has for you and there will be people  will think you are crazy you have not because you asked not James 4:2 I am not  good at asking God for things being specific but I look at my fortunate and marvel how I blessed I truly am maybe I do not need anymore?   I do not like the notion that everything happens for a reason and there are some Christans  who say that to people they barley know I am not sure  if that is true and I am not sure if that is the best thing to tell Christans especially with all the unexacted tragedies people deal I am just not sure.   But I am hoping that when those tragedies happen I hope to lean  on God even before those tragedies occur but I am not sure how one can prepare for the tragedies before they occur.   I guess I consider myself: to be a dreamer  and I said I worry about the notion or idea of being selfish it is human nature because Dennis Prager wrote: in his book Happiness is a serious problem that one of the major obstacles to happiness is an unsustainable nature or human nature that we have to work against human nature.   But I am hoping that God will help me because I have offend heard that life is a balancing act so I am hoping with God’s help I can balance others lives without them hating me and where ever my dreams take because it says in the bible that anyone without a dream will perish.   So dreaming and the act of dreams is essential in other words you do not have a choice I would like to go to a Rock’n Roll Fantasy Camp : when I saw Lynn Hoffman interview: Bret Micheals etc. on VH1 Classic I thought how fun?   Because I have been a life long hard rock fan I would love to see how that works.   I am thrilled that AXSTV  started doing Wrestle Week it started this past Tuesday April 20th and ended this past Saturday which ended this past Sunday with Rebellion on Sunday April 25th.   I will always support Impact banner I would like to thank all of the Impact talent for their passion and their hardcore sprit thank you to Scott D’amore of Impact: and Tony Khan of AEW Impact is a banner that is extremely special to me!   Henry Rollins once said on the Dennis Miller Show: in 1992 that they say life is short but  when you think about life is nether short or long it just goes on whether you are here or not you die tomorrow I’m still here so it is all about lifetime and that he did not know anyone in the audience but he liked them!   Kenny Omega became the new Impact Champion I am not sold on Kenny Omega but I probably have not watched enough of his matches: but I am looking forward to watching Rebellion because as I need to keep reminding myself we are all fans.    

There are more people for you then against you

 

There are a lot of people who wish ill and harm on other people but the good news is there are more people for you then against you that is something to keep in my mind because it get clouded by nosie that is extremely  important to keep in my mind when navigating the internet and the world today.   There maybe indviuals in your own family who may wish ill on others in their families but I hope that is extremely rare.   There will be people you do not even know but you will feel like you do examples: entertainers what matters most the mark and the influence they have had on other people.   Sometimes it is to late for people to realize what someone has meant to example: A family member.   But hopefully again that is rare.   There will always be people who are ready to pounce on you wheather they know the facts or not they are always ready to judge to make themselves feel better.   But those people are usually unhappy and miserable.   There is definitely a part of me that wishes that most of this would go away but that will not happened I just do not think social media has made for a healthier happier society because those pouncers   are always ready to make snap judgements wheather they have any imformation or not I am not against judging by the way I think we do not judge enough for example: dads who do not stick around and raise their kids but those are two different types of judgements.   The type of judgements that I am competly against are those attacks oh so and so is a homophobe so and so is an anti semitisic well if words matter I do not think it is wise to use those terms to describe someone without realizing the meaning because they lose their context.   Mutt Lange wrote the song wild child for the band Romeo’s Daughter on their self-titled debut album Romeo’s Daughter.   Then Heart re recorded the Mutt Lange track.   Mutt Lange also wrote all I wanna do is make love to you which I really hate this verision I think it took Ann Wilson a lot of guts to admit that they sold out during this time songs such as: what about love with all the loops that to me is not Heart.   But I love songs from the mid to late 1980s such as: never and alone and it is easy to forget these dreams remains a huge radio hit for Heart but I prefer Halestorm’s verision of all I wanna do is make love to you it is more rocking and filled with genie emotion from front woman: Lzzy Hale.   It is worth repeating to end this section there are more people for you then against you that most people will ever realize.  

acknowledgements:

 

I am extremely fortunate I probably do not express it has well as I should but I hope to continue and improve.   I would first and need to thank my dad for watching Wayne’s World 2 that finally gave me the impetus to start this project I love you!   My mom you are the most selfless person I know because you put my brother and me first over your own happiness and well being.    I am truly so fortunate to have you in my life thank you I love you!   My grandpa thank you for encouraging me to continue this project I truly look forward to spending time with you each week thanks for all the laughs I love you!   Special side note: My brother  you truly are  my best friend I thank God that I have you in my life.    I truly wish nothing but the best for you in your life because you deserve any and all the best in your life.    You are the absolute best.   I love you!   Lastly I need to thank God because truth be told I do not acknowledge him in all ways I should but I am thankfully that he has gotten me this far I think I know what it is I think because God has gotten me this far he will not leave us.   I look at my fortunate and marvel at how fortunate I am.   In Chris Hardwick’s book How to Reach the Next Level in Your Real Life: he writes:  You Deserve Every Wonderful Thing You Want in This Life.   There is No Merit to Living in A Sadness Dungeon. Work Hard and Play Nicely.      I also need to thank Eddie Trunk reading his books encouraged me to enjoy the music that I truly love regardless of what others may think.   Also thanks Eddie for being a flag waver for the music you love!   There are musicians/bands that I only discovered by reading and listening to Eddie Trunk.   I need to thank Jim Cornete for signing my 25th anniversary Midnight Express scarp book and also helping me forum many of my opinions and preserving what makes professional wrestling such a different and unique art form preserving the magic.    I think this is an extremely important note: there is an entitlement I am not sure what the right word is but there is a group of individuals who think it is their obligation to stop anything they may find offensive not taking into account that in order to live in a free society we have to live with things that we do not like that is the price of living in a free society.   No one forces anyone to watch or listen to anything they do not want it is a lack of maturity I think because as adults we understand that this is the price of living in a free society.   As Dennis Prager said who are you to shut him up or who is he to shut any one else up? That is how important freedom of speech and freedom in general is.   I think it is okay to apologize because everyone will make a mistake but apologizing for "offending" anyone I think is a huge issue and problem.   Thank you to Tommy Dreamer:  and House of Hardcore/HOH I need to thank Ronnie James Dio for the quote  at the beginning of this blog.   I am not sure I will ever live up to that quote or the person Ronnie was but it truly inspires me.   I think Lemmy Killmister  from Motorhead: came up with the saying I used and Doro Pesch started using it and then she sticks up the Dio  horns and says "Stay Hard Stay Heavy"!   I need to acknowledge God more without becoming a religious fanatic which I think I need  to reiterate and again I do not want to be disrespectful to anyone with this statement the last thing people need is just another religion in their lives what people need  and should desire is for  is Jesus Christ to be in their lives but I am certainly not perfect.   I hear people say they will become a Christan when they are either ready or perfect so they will never become Christians because they will never be ready or perfect.   I still have desires that I do not understand and try to avoid them but I will never deny I have them.   But I am willing to put my faith in Jesus Christ again never perfect.    

Immination needs to be developed:

 

I love using my immagination it is extremely important I fear that because of the internet it has taken away much of what I used to entertain myself and I also worry  about the over stimulation of this current generation because when I was growing up and because I watched: MTV VH1 and even BET I  would imitate  or try to imitate what I saw  and it was not because I think I  have an engaging personality or anything like that I just enjoyed music videos and presenting that to people who may enjoy it.   I never know what people may like so all I can do is write about music musicans and bands that are my favorites musicans and bands that I  not only love but I feel are underappreciate.   If people like the musicans or bands you write about it that is a bonus but what is the most important is being authentic because people can spot a phony and the main thing I have learned from listening to Eddie Trunk is liking music that he actually likes and not worring about wheather the music is popular or not you just like them because let’s face it a lot of people care about being popular and when you care about being popular you will  comprise if people do not like you they will always hate you so I think the absolute best advice I can give is be authentic and hopefully people will enjoy what you are doing but unfortunaly I think most people will tell you  how much you suck and you should stop doing whatever you are doing.   I find all of this unfortune and sad  and at least they are trying to do something or bettering themselves.   But I never have understood the thrill that people get when a person fails it is unfortunate and not good for up and coming generations this needs to be reversed because what may seem like a mundane comment to them comes off as crass or mean especially when you  are young and do not have prospective it is why there are many suicides from young generations who use social media and have so many issues with social media and people say you must adapt and I say no especially young people and if that stops a person from reaching an audience that they would other wise reach there are other outlets that can be used there is definitely something wrong with up and coming generations and the only way it can be reversed is by teaching values and decency again.   Some might ask you do not want people to express their opinions?   I am not suggesting that I  am just suggesting think about what you say before you write it.   It sort of like when I see people wish harm on others or wish them to fail it makes me extremely sick to my stomach.   In others words  I can not relate to it I do not want to give something that kind of attention that I do not like.   Why is it that when a loved is alive you are unable to express what they mean to you?   It is almost as if God or more specially human nature plays a joke on us I do think battling human nature is a part of life and is a constant battle even if you have a an easy going nature it maybe good to battle that as well not get rid of it of course but I am sure those who have an easy going nature have to work on themselves.   But back to the question of why are we unable to commutate our feelings to loved one when they are  alive  but when they  pass away  we are able commutate what they mean to us?   Again I think it is working against our nature the worest thing that we are telling people is to be true to our nature that is worst advice you can give someone because if I was true to my own nature I would do a lot of stuff that I would regret more specifically women  that I like but that is not good for me or society.   So it is a terrible notion to tell people to be true to  their nature.   But back to developing your immination I really do not think it is good for people to be  stimulated all the time  I think about so many of my best moments growing up I literally did nothing I just used my immination to create whatever it was I wanted to create I really fear that because of the internet does that take away an indivual’s immination?    I fear it does  and constant contact I do not think we were made for that.   I am a huge fan of Colleen Fitzpatrick who fronted the alternative rock band Even’s Plump and then in the late 1990s she became Vitamin C which she went in a completely different direction Vitamin C’s style was more of  a pop and hip-hop style which I do not hate but Even’s Plump and that alternative rock style is more of my thing but that style of music was going away in popularity at the time and Colleen said in an interview that becoming Vitamin C gave her a new identity which she said she is full of different identities I really love that.   I think one of the best things any parent can do is help them develop their immination  instead of squandering it because if it is not developed you definitely will loose it before you even know you have it.   The thing about dreams in pursuing them I worry about being selfish that is one of the things I am concerned with the most I am not sure if that is my mind preventing me or stopping  me from accomplishing stuff because those who pursue  their dreams they have to sacrifice time from their families and how does one pursue their dreams without their families hating them because I really do not want that.   But at the same time I want to live the fullest life I can and I want everyone to live the fullest life they can I understand that those outlets that I mentioned that I grew  up admiring are going away so I am not sure what I can do but at the same time my good fortunate is such that I try not to worry about which outlet I can best get my messages out.   But I know one thing for sure I will not change my style because the woke generation wants me to I will make adjustments because I want to continue to improve.   I want to live the fullest life I can and I encourage others to try and do the same.   I also want to bring the fun back that I experienced growing up people do not need to be so sensitive or uptight.   The main aspect about Rush Limbaugh that I admired most he seemed as if he was enjoying himself and  having fun.   I think there is a life lesson for all of us.  

I hope never get so caught up in my own ideas that I forget about their's

 

I hope and try to never get so caught in my own ideas I forget about what is good about their’ s I understand the notion of to many cooks in the kitchen  it is why corporations cannot get anything done because there are way too many opinions being expressed and everyone thinks there opinion is the right one.   I started this section by saying that I hope that I never get so caught up in my own ideas that I forget about theirs I will give an example:  if a group of people wanted to listen to a musican and band that I did not like I would say okay that is  what the majority wants that is okay that is a silly example but I think it illustrates my point.   It is why I understand the classic rock format I do not like it but radio is a business and they want to appeal to what the majority wants to hear and most people only want to hear stuff they know and do not go any further then that.   Which  again I have I trouble coming to grips because I have such a fondness for so much of this music as I said a lot of this alternative rock helped me find my voice to not be so angry depressed and alienated I guess I kind of always felt alienated but so much of that alternative rock helped me get through that and understand those emotions even though I had those emotions that I did not understand I never allowed myself to think of myself as a victim I have had moments of feeling sorry for myself I think that is good to go to those places when you feel those emotions just do not get stuck there which is easy to do but the thing to remember there is a difference between depression and sadness depression is a state of mind and sadness is just an emotion that everyone eventually goes through if you avoid those emotions you will eventually hurt yourself so do not avoid those emotions when you feel them but I never think of myself as a victim because I think that is the easy way out.   I said previously that I worry about the next generation their relationship with not only music but the DJs just like I felt I had when I was growing up that was extremely important to me and extremely helpful for me because of the fun and joy that I gained from watching those music videos and having those relationships with those VJS on MTV and VH1 those VJs probably take that for granted it probably does not mean much that much to them it was probably just a job to them which now looking back at it I realized how important those relationships were to me.   People might ask what about your families?   I do not take those relationships for granted  but as many people know those relationships can be extremely complicated mine is no different but that is not bad and despite my circumstances I think how fortunate I am I think this cannot be an  accident this is  something with my faith where I do not believe God makes mistake and God does not put us in positions by accident and there may not be a reason for it humans have a yearning to know why things happens I guess it is only natural  for people to want to know why things happened and why they happen when they  do but unfortunaly when you do that you unnational make things worse because you make up stories about why things happen because the reason is unknowable one of my biggest fears if I became a pastor if someone asks me why this tragedy happened to them they may also wonder was it something they did?   My answer to the second question is no and the answer to the 1^st question is I do not know.   The thing with being a Christan or even a pastor is people think you have this key to God where your prayers get there faster than others that is certainly not the case when you become a Christan you realize just how broken you are without Christ that is it.   You realize how much you need him in your life  I think it is best to think of everyone has a work in progress because even when you become a Christan the desire to sin is still there which is human nature but I think trying to make sense of why bad things happen in life will only cause additional pain because it is unknowable.   I really  do not understand  why people focus  on things they hate it is not only a waste of time because life is so precarious and fragile there is absolutely no reason to focus on something you hate because we live in an outrage culture because of social media but I think that is a minority of people I really do not believe that the majority of people live to be outraged constantly the mainstream media definitely strives  on outrange Brain Stelzer may not understand causing a divide but his show on CNN and his whole job is analyzing his outrange. Stelzer cannot be as stupid as he claims to be not understanding how his outrange is hurting the country because he is constantly claiming that the mainstream media is not the enemy of the country but why does he keep insisting  that the media is not the enemy of the people?   Stelzer is very defensive when anyone challenges his notion but why?   Because he knows that he and the mainstream media are actually the enemy of the people.   I do not believe that the majority of people are racist but I think because there is so little racism the mainstream media has to make up racism.   The majority of people think about race like the color of their shoes in other words it does not matter.   Some may wonder why I objectify women that I like in many of these sections first of all I never intended to objectify anyone some of it is my sense of humor and some of it I  truly believe I do not trust anyone who does not have a sense of humor or someone who takes themselves too seriously  I am not going to change my standards because it may offended the woke mob no one is forced to read this and I have to admit I am old compared to the woke mob and the people on social media if that makes me out of touch I am okay with that this goes back to not trying to make sense out of life’s tragedies and if you are a control freak of any kind you will eventually self-destruct there is a lot of comfort if you look for it knowing that human beings are not in control of everything.   Henry Rollins said something similar to this: they say life is short but life is nether short or long it just goes on whether you are here or not and that he did not know anyone in the audience but he liked them because they are full of potential that is not exactly what he said but I respect it is very cool    This talk is available: Dennis Miller’s HBO show in 1992.   Henry also talked about inspiration how he wants to find some good jams because you  have all thought about suicide because you all realize how shallow life is but no suicide because we are to cool for that but it is going to be harder to find inspiration because there will always be people who want you to worship them because everyone is sincere.   I wish we could go back to an era where Carmen Electra was on The X Show on FX that was geared toward men which there is no way  that could be done today but my question is what is wrong with a show that is geared towards men with hot women?   They will argue that it is sexist what I am tired of is the notion of there are things that we thought were okay were never okay because those standards keep changing they do not mean  anything and this is not progress women know what they are getting into Carmen Electra wrote a book called How to be sexy I do not think Carmen would be offended she knows the power she has over men I do not find them to be a bad thing.   I was never really much of a basketball fan but when Michael Jordon and Dennis Rodman played on the Chicago Bulls I followed it I still am a fan of Dennis Rodman I just like his style and his uniqueness.   I wanted  to do or pay tribute to Kari  Wuher Kari started on Remote Control on MTV Colin Quinn started on Remote Control so did Adam Sandler I really like Kari she was on The List on VH1 with Carmen Electra with Henry Rollins has host.   Kari Wuher is truly gorgeous and sexy.   I know that before podcasting entertainers such as: Joe Rogan would release their material on CD there is a part of me that wishes that would happen again. The main thing that I have learned in doing a project such as this is not try to please other people in what I would think they would want me to like and dislike that does not mean I would not take others opinions into account as I said at the start of this section I would hope that I would never get so caught up in my own ideas that I would forget about theirs's I have never been good at meeting people giving off a good first impression not because I think I am so great it is a usually uncomfortable meeting people for the first time which is why I try to allow them to talk more about what they want to talk about that is where those perceived  slights come in that I truly try to avoid because those are terrible.   The term rebel or the act of  rebelling is usually seen as negative thing but I can say it does not have to be a bad thing as Tommy Dreamer always says I have been a rebel my whole life being a rebel during  the ECW Revolution so that is a good rebellion or Eddie Trunk getting into radio so he could let others know about music that he loved that others did not know about rebelling against something for no reason is a problem but Eddie never claims to like a musican or band only because it is the cool hip thing to do or not liking a musican or bands because they are unpopular that I truly respect but again some might say you might become more popular or well known if you comprise?   I do not care in fact people can spot a phony pretty quickly they do not last long.   I have mentioned that I am a fan of Justina Valentine  she is on the MTV show Wild’N Out which is now on VH1 but the way I discovered Justina was searching for old episodes of Singled Out but then I discovered a revamped version of Singled Out with social media included.   Justina was the CO host of this revamped version but I wonder how Justina would have done during the original version with Chris Hardwick Jenny Mccarthy/ Carmen Electra the reason I was thinking about  it seemed as if people were more care free back in the late 1990s and even into the early 2000s  I think or I know we need to get back to that because we will be better off for it but I know critics will say we just did not know what we were doing back then what we thought was careless fun we did not know the harm we were doing to women and this marginalized group  but the question I think needs to asks were people happier more laid back then?   The answer is yes but the woke crowd will say but at what was the cost in making for example: that joke and I say there was no cost and go away so see how that goes over?   They will probably be dumb founded because they are so used to everyone caving so just try that.  

The relationship between music

 

It is immaturity to think you can assess a person’s character  by what they say privately social media definitely  made it worse and because young people want to be famous  and because  the standards of what is right and wrong changes according to the woke left that is a huge issue and it is usually  young kids on Twitter who are discovering something for the first time sorry but standards of what is right and wrong do not change what is right and wrong does not change I remember a time when there was no social media and people seemed much happier without it.   I can understand wanting recognition in fact it is good to want recognition but the desire to be famous for anything no matter the cost is a huge problem for especially young people because if they are getting their self-worth  from how many likes they get on social media they are guaranteed to have  an un happy life because they constantly compare themselves to other people life is not a contest but unfortunaly I think many start to believe that when they are young and that needs to stop the best thing any of us can do is not cave to this mentality because the only reason this keeps happening corporations and people keep giving in the best thing we can do is stop guaranteed you are going offend someone on some level especially if they are looking to be offended.   Punk rock had nothing to do with s and m it all started because a group of indviuals believed they had to claw their way and to climb though walls to have their voices heard it was similar to the counter culture that took place in the 1960s which is also how a new form of rock began in the late 1980s and early 1990s the same with alternative rock in the early to the late 1990s in the 1980s this type of rock was known as indie rock examples: Aimmee Man and X look up the song motel room in my bed from their 1982 album Under the Big Black Sun.   Alternative rock started to gain popularity because many of the musicans and bands started getting their music videos played on MTV which meant radio followed suit.   The only local radio station I can think of dedicated to playing alternative was 96X which did not last long the alternative rock that I loved did not last long on MTV either once  rap and hip-hop started to gain traction that was it.   I  liked Bill Bellamy he always seemed like he was having fun and a nice guy because he was the VJ on MTV that hosted for rap hip-hop and R and B but it really was not my thing: come on but Bill made me think that is what I want to do I loved his enthusiasm he was one of my heroes growing up but it still took over   the culture so I  was stuck  with either rap and hip-hop or boy bands and during that time Gangster rap became popular.   Shairly Mansion said in an interview: with Joe Rogan that during Garbage’s popularity if a musican or band was not an alt band record companies did not want anything to do with them  that certainty changed very quickly.   I am greatful that we had those shows on MTV Alternative Nation and 120 Mintues even though Alternative Nation was a little bit before my time and once those two shows went away all MTV had was TRL.   Because for me the music played on Alternative Nation and 120 Mintues helped me find my voice to not be so angry and depressed all of time so it was really there when I needed it.   The music industry has changed so much compared to when I growing up because I would see a music video that I liked and I want to see it again and if I heard it on the radio that was awesome I did not buy a lot of CDs growing up but when I did I was so excited or I would hear something on the radio that was another huge thing for me now there is no relationship to the music it is just disposable and back ground noise where the thinking is there is new music from a band I like I just look it up on Youtube or I will just download it that is difficult for me to understand because I grew up loving music and still do now I have to find it on Youtube and find it by accident and I can say this finding new music on Youtube is very difficult because you have to know exactly what you are looking.   Most people are not going to take the time to search for music if it inconvenience them in any  way.   For me it has always been about the music it was never just background noise I felt I had a relationship with the music.   There is a huge difference between listening to music downloaded on the internet compared to listening to it on a radio boom box or stereo but I can say most people I have talk to about this do not notice a difference so I am just going by my own personal experience there is a part of me that wishes I never heard music on a boom box because I never would have noticed a difference but I noticed how much I was truly missing.   I agree with Eddie Trunk I do not understand why Grunge/alternative rock and 1980s rock/hair metal could not   mesh together for example: Warrant and Alice in Chains are both great  bands but instead  of having that diversity 80s hard rock became uncool and Grudge became cool.   So radio’s format was changed from playing 80s hard rock to playing Grudge  and music from the 1970s.   Side note: I do not like the term hair metal the only reason I am referring to it as such  so people know what I am referring.   The term hair metal was only used in the 90s to make  fun of those musicans and bands sadly that stigma has  never left the mainstream.   I do not understand why no other era is singled out such as: the 80s but it is.   I worry about fans not only not having a relationship with music but not having that relationship with the DJs much like when I was growing up I felt as I had a relationship with those VJs on MTV and VH1.   I know the argument will be things change but I can say for sure that this is one of the reasons the music industry is non existed because of the internet and Youtube because new music will come out and it will be popular for a couple weeks and then it is almost as if it did not existed at least with when MTV and VH1 played music videos music had more of a chance to appeal to not just the hardcore fans but more of the mainstream As anyone ever heard of Daisy Fuentes?   She used to be a VJ on MTV she eventually married Richard Marx the guy who performed the song it don’t mean nothing and right here waiting for you.   It don’t mean nothing I kind of like but for the rest I really do not care.   I am  really a huge fun of Latin Pop  musican Shakira I know that does not sound like me but I do like to mix it up and I truly do love some  of Shakira’s music my favorite Shakira’s song is objection tango  but I have said that I do not talk about musicans and bands that are popular I just happen to enjoy them I have never watched The Voice but I know Shakira  was a coach on The Voice that maybe the only reason I would want to watch The Voice I really do love Shakira I am really not a fan of EDM but I do love Pretty Poison and Jade Starling and Shakira is really one of my favorites.   

There is a huge difference in what people say publicly versus privately:

 

I am truly bothered I really am I am sure some people would ask what is the big deal it does not matter they tell me this notion that you can assess someone’s character by what they say privately.   Here is an example: President Trump and the planet Hollywood tape and he did not even know he was being recorded do you think he would have said anything like that if he had known he  was being recorded?   Of course not it was an obvious joke but people will aruge people say things in private that they do mean okay even if that were true and maybe there is something truth to it there is no alive who if everything they have said   is recorded cannot be made to look like a bad person.   If someone says the n word in private that does not automatically make them a racist now if  someone calls someone the n publicly that is very bad even then I am not sure you can automatically label them as racist but there is a world of difference between public and private conversations.   A point of private talk is to vent to say gross things to say silly things I do not think that should be the majority of your conversations obviously but it does not bother me.   People say the n word for example: sometimes only out of anger I do not think that is a word anyone should use but if they say it only out of anger or joking around that does not make them a racist.   If someone does not like someone because of their race that is the definition of racist.   What truly bothers me is when someone is caught joking around and then years later  they are forced to make apology that to me is bullying it is the notion of looking at me I am so virtuous I am fighting against racism sexism etc no they are not they are just showing what arrogant narcisstic indviuals they are no one can live up to their impossible standard in which they have set it is not a good sign if people are being judged by what they say privately.   Urinating privately is okay but urinating  publicly is not.  

I have heard the expression good things comes to those who wait

I have heard the expression good things come to those who wait some say you must take an opportunity when it comes along I am not sure the right approach it is okay to say I don’t know it is very humbling and I think better for everyone in the long run.   What I admire most about Rush Limbaugh was he seemed as if he enjoyed and had fun with everything he did on radio a lot of people make mistake of I hate this person’s politics they are evil and bad people.   I have noticed about the left they are constantly calling people they disagree evil I feel as conservatives and republicans only have one word for them wrong because I really do not think of them as evil because conservatives and republicans do not get meaning from politics and the left does not but when politics is where you get your meaning in life there is no way you can see another person’s humanity which is why we are where we are.   One can say and this is an extremely important  destination that I think everyone must try to do with everyone.   I like to do this in this arena x this person is a fool and  in arena y this person is wonderful.   I think Rush Limbaugh having fun and his use of humor is a life lesson I think for everybody to enjoy and have a happy life.   Not everyone can do that I know but I think it is an extremely important  life lesson    What I admired about Rush Limbaugh was not his politics whether I agree with them or not but it was his storytelling ability his humor and his analytical skills he asked questions that people were not supposed to ask Rush Limbaugh really was a media critic he would say this is what the media is reporting but this is really what is going because he exposed that media bias influenced their reporting on a story whether they would report them or not based on their political views that is one of the reasons the left hated him because he exposed them and he used humor and on the left humor is considered mean satire is considered  mean and offensive that is why so many leftists are so unhappy because they are always looking to be offended.   Rush Limbaugh was a creator because before Rush’s national radio show am radio was almost non existed but the main  reason Rush chose to do am radio he was allowed to do what he wanted to do no one thought that format would be successful because before that  am radio was basically just local hosts who would just read a newspaper and asks for listeners to call in.   So Rush Limbaugh was the first conservative   host to go national and he was able to engage the listeners into critically think so even if you disagreed with him no one could break down his arguments and analyzes all they could do is call him a racist.   One of the reasons Bill O’reilly was not has successful as Rush on radio Bill was never analytical meaning he never really asked questions which is probably why he is so successful and #1  on TV for so many years because he just gave information and offers an opinion on it but is not analytical meaning he does require the viewer to critically think.   That does not mean Bill O’reilly is not talented they just had different styles and approaches I like both styles I do not understand this one style one approach I can enjoy both of them and respect them.   I think because radio requires the host to illustrate the listeners immination that is why the style changes.   For example: Sean Hannity is more analytical on his radio show and is not on his TV show even though he gives the same imformation but he approaches  the two mediums differently.   Bill O’reilly says that he was never a radio guy that the radio factor was just an extension of the  TV show.   I am not suggesting Bill O’reilly is a bad guy but I have heard he is a very competitive which is why he has gotten where he is so that is not a bad thing.   I have heard Rush Limbaugh did not have the ego he had on the air he was actually very humble and was always greatful to people for the smallest things he never let fame go to his head which is an excellent life leason for everybody.  

Those who have a difference of poltical opinion are evil?

 

The problem I see that I think is truly getting worse and it is really not clear and that is that those who have a difference of opinion are evil I see the more on the left then anywhere else but wherever it is it needs to stop.   Anyone who believes human nature is basically good why do parents have to remind their children 100s of times to say thank you?   Of course human nature is not basically good because people would not have to work on themselves constantly battling their own nature because God is good he wants us to be good so the most important question we can ask is how to make good people?   I am going to guess that most people who lean left  probably think human nature is basically good.   But why is there is much evil in the world? There are two answers that I can think because the world is broken and human nature is not basically good.   The first thing that I would like to see happen is not believing that there is something wrong with someone and that they are evil if they have different poltical views because it has gotten to the point where we do not even see people’s humanity anymore maybe that is the mainstream media’s goal because that is what it seems to me.   Wishing ill on people because of their poltical views hoping they will go to hell there is  something very wrong the woke crowd wants to save the world which can never happen by the way they are wasting their time but hopefully they feel noble it is just really bad and it troubles me because all of this stuff I mentioned is extremely important but has any of this made for a better society? I would say no.  

The main reason I am doing this:

 

I was thinking about an interview that I heard from Eddie Trunk about what made him get into radio it was not to gain recognition for himself it was to let people know about musicans and bands that he loved.   That is one of the reasons I started this project to write about musicans and bands that I love.   I also wanted to discuss my thoughts on professional wrestling things that I like about it things I do not.   But it was really a way for me to express my opinions in a clear and understandable way that I hope is entertaining.   I know I ended up  writing about politics and religion  one of the reasons I started writing about politics it was the 2016 election and I was extremely angry and frustrated Black Lives Matter had just started to give context so it was threptic for me to write about how  I  was feeling at the time but that was not the plan but I think the mainstream media makes a lot of these problems and issues worse.   I have also written much about religion and one of the issues that I think is extremely important for me to try and clarify my take on the issue of sin because I think it can been taken to far because let’s face it everything can be classified as a sin because just one sin is enough to keep us out of heaven so it is almost impossible so I hope that I was able to provide some clarity on the issue of sin.   I also wrote about females that I like and if any of what I have written comes off as objectifying them that has never been my intention I have only had two intentions which are to pay tribute to them and have fun.   I think because of the social media age we now live nothing has context and so much of the fun has  been removed.    We are all going to die and we have to be able to have humor we have to be able to  joke around with people.   With the woke culture they want to remove anything that can be considered offensive and that is just not possible anything can offend someone I know the woke coward wants to save the world and for everything to progress .   But I really do not think we are truly progressing we are regressing.   I also do not write anything where I think because it is popular I pretend to like it.    I probably would get  much more views but that would not be authentic and a waste of my time and a waste of any reader’s time.   The music I have written about just so happens to be music that I love that I do not think gets  the proper recognition  but I have also written about The Rolling Stones and they are pretty well known so the music I have written about is what I love I never take into account whether  they are popular or not just if I like them or not.   I think many people say or do things because they want to be popular and gain recognition.   There is nothing wrong with wanting to be popular but if that is your only goal you will do anything for that recognition the entertainers that I admire most were always people who did not censor themselves and that never took into account who they might offend I care what people think but only to an extent and I think it is good to teach children not to do something just because they think they will be become popular because if they comprise when they are young when will they stop?   I mentioned that I thought NPR made to much out of the title of Fiona Apple’s album When The Pawn.. I still 20 years later do not understand why NPR did what they did I do not care about Fiona’s personally life I never have all I care about is whether When The Pawn.. is any good or not but many in the media missed out because they were so concerned with Fiona Apple’s personal life.  

There are defiantly limits to what you should try:

 

There are defiantly limits to what you should try I am just suggesting doing hobbies such as drawing and panting is a postive thing.   It sort of like if something bad happens we  should ban maybe guns for example or some other type of entertainment.   I think if someone is struggling and they have problems I think family members should intervene the arugment is no one can do anything until someone does something but I think someone a family member for example should intervene and try to get them some help I am against censorship of any kind to live in a free society people have to put up with entertainment and many other things that they find objectionable.   I am not sure that is being taught anymore I think more and more people are being taught that if they find something objectionable that has to go away.   That is not the 1^st amendment and it does not matter if something is a joke or not it is all protected.   The only limit to the 1^st amendment  is limiting someone else’s freedom of speech but what bothers me about the left will always accuse someone of hiding behind the 1^st amendment any speech they do not like they will say that  is what bothers me about CNN’s Chef Media Correspondent Brain  Stelter is that he claims to be for freedom of speech but he calls stories that he does not like misinformation or that the internet should limit a person’s reach if he disagrees with it.   If Stelzer would admit that he is not for freedom of speech I would be find with him.   What makes it worse about Stelzer is he thinks we are all to stupid to figure out what is true and what is not.   Brain Stelzer is not the arbiter of what is freedom of speech and what is not but I think that is  what he thinks his job is he has a God complex to him I find him to be an evil demon and he keeps winning.   What bothers me most about CNN and a lot of the mainstream media they have such destain for the middle of the country they will not even take the time to figure out the middle of the contury  that helps the rest of the country work.   CNN and the democrat party always claim to be for the little guy even though they can not stand the little guy just look at the evidence.    

At least try

 I have wanted to at least try and draw or animate something like that.   I would draw not for any other reason then I love to use my immination  so most of the time I just want to try stuff.   I mentioned in a previous section how I discovered and become a fan of Justina Valentine by searching for old episodes of Singled Out on MTV so even though I think social media has taken a lot of the fun out of a lot of society I am still a fan of Justina I enjoyed Jenny Mccarthy and Carmen Electra has CO hosts of Singled Out because it was fun I know one thing for sure if anyone is looking to be offened they have no chance of achieving any  kind of happiness and  I think unfortunaly we are creating more and more people becoming easily offended  which is going to make life harder then it should be.    

Everyone has talent it is just a matter of finding it our lifetime:

 

Everyone has talent it is just a matter of finding it in our lifetime because everyone has a timetable meaning everyone’s life is going to end if you are a control freak of any kind you are guaranteed that you will become overwhelmed and miserable.   But there is defiantly comfort in the knowledge that people are not in control over everything.   That freaks some people out but I think not having expectations people have the best chance of being happy.   In Buddhism  it says all unhappiness comes from expectations and desires so get rid of all expectations and desires.   I can understand not having expectations but desires I can not get rid I have a desire for a lot of things in life for example: I have a desire to find a cure for cancer I have a desire for a nice house.   I think most people never reach their full potential I do believe that it is most people’s fault.   But I do think that the more anyone thinks about themselves and their own situations  the more depressed they will become the more anyone is able to look outside of their own situations the more fulfilled they will become.   Human nature is a very diffcult thing to battle but it is worth at least trying.   I have become a huge fan of Justina Valentine the first time I become aware of Justina was trying to find old Singled Out episodes  on MTV and I discovered that Justina was the co host of this new verision of Singled Out I do think that social media has taken away a lot of the fun that people used to have but there is nothing I can do about it social media is here to stay.   I think Justina started out on MTV’s free style show Wild’N Crazy.   Doing that gave Justina the opportunity  to record her own rap and hip-hop material.   I just wanted to acknowledge that I am a fan of Justina Valentine.  

There is a downside to owing your own content

 

There is a downside to owing your own content one of the downsides  there is no room for error and if you make a mistake you are unable to correct.   I guess it is similar to doing a radio monologue but that is why I make notes on things where I think I could written something better or how I might have rushed a statement but hopefully with the notes I take it will make me a better writer and more importantly for me to be better communicator.   I am looking forward to Impact coming back to Thursday April 8^th on AXSTV and Twitch.   I am looking forward to Rebellion with Rich Swan The Impact World  Champion and Kenny Omega the AEW  World Champion and the winner gets everything it is going to be speical and unique and competly different.   For those fans who wish Impact to fail I do not understand it I understand liking or preferring one brand or company over the another but I think the more companies there are the more opportunities for talent so I do not get it let’s hope every company is successful.   No company will be as successful or on the same level as the WWE but that is okay.   Because the WWE is a publicly traded company they are unable to take chances that other companies are able to take.   Some talent in the WWE are able to have full creative over their “characters” but I do not think most do so that is just the nature of the WWE.   Some argue that talent in professional wrestling should not have creativity control over their gimmicks and personas I think they should because I do not think talent in professional wrestlers are just playing a character similarly to playing a part in a movie or TV show the problem the people in power think it is the same as playing a part in a movie and or TV show and that is a problem.   But I think in the WWE that is the way they want their fans to view their product as this is no different then a TV show or movie and this is all make believe.   That is probably why the WWE is so successful because they are able to cater to the largest group of fans not just the traditional wrestling fans who will always be there.   So sometimes in life one has to take a chance and for those who have been on this journey with me thank you I hope it continues to grow and get better.