Wednesday, January 22, 2020

The reason I am the way that I am



My last post may have seemed harsh that was not my intention I want to enjoy my life I want others to enjoy their lives as well I truly feel sorry for the indivuals I am referring I just want to be a postive person it is not easy for me to do so.   Life is not just one big party I understand that but I am referring to something such as: Andrew WK when Andrew talks about partying he is not talking about partying in the traditional sense he is referring to just enjoy being alive.   I have really enjoyed putting much of this together some of the things I have said about girls I am sure could be taken as sexist that was never my intention I was just having fun I think the first five sections of this blog explain why I am the way I am.   The indviuals I am referring I feel sorry for them because I think of the pain and sadness they  must feel going through their lives.   I do not think most of this is about disliking something because there is a lot of things I do not really care and it is all good because I do not focus on them but these people do.   What I really want to  do is devote myself to is self-improvement.    Here is the thing about self-improvement I do not over think it I just do it I think many people just over think self-improving themselves and that is why they do not improve themselves because they are overwhelmed because they are constanly overthinking the idea of self-improvement.    I do not think you have to be born into a life of privilege to do this I think the trap many fall into they think there are only a few people who have been touched by God and I am not one of them so I might as well buy lottery tickets.   The reason I despise the lottery so much I think  it preys  on poor people.   Meaning these are people already  desperate anyway and they are thinking playing the lottery is a ticket out I have never heard of anyone better off  after they play the lottery and if so I apologize but let me know if I am wrong about this because I really would love to know.   I have heard an old expression being poor is a state of mind I am not sure about that but playing the lottery problay does not help.  One of the songs that really connects with me is rock’n roll from Avril Lavigne this track from Avril really sums up how I feel about rock’n roll in the 5th section of this project I wrote we will stay hard and heavy because I have no choice sums up my pholiposhy on this I wish I felt different by the way but I think I have grown to embrace it!  

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